BALI - here I come................

Ini story Badak self-centered. Am going to Bali on Sunday for a conference (that's the official and legitimate story that I tell everyone) tetapi hakikatnya, adalah untuk bersukaria (itu adalah the main agenda..:) However since the grand varsity will be paying for the trip maka terpaksalah berpura2 bekerja.....sambil bersukaria...which ever come first la......when I go I decide la...ha ha ha

Badak self-centered is so excited about going because Bali is her second home (and Christchurch is her third and but of coz Boston is forever her first home). Tho she just came back from Bali three weeks ago, she is still elated. She will always be excited about Bali.

Bali calms my nerves. Bali makes me think nothing about the evilness in the world. Bale creates the inner peace in me. BTW, Badak4 just reminded me to enjoy myself and find my inner peace in Bali which I believe is so easy to do as I will be all alone -totally alone unless I pick up some Aussie hunks but I am not into Aussie - only into Pierce Brosnon after watching Mamma Mia the movie...ha ha ha...but I am still loyal to Abang John and Monk la.......errr....can have many at one go what...if you don't believe, ask Badak Prest - she taught me just that :)

Anyway, conference (now I can pronounce NeoLiberalism in one go - so can attend the conference la :) will be held in Sanur - about 30mins from Kuta. I stayed there 3 weeks ago and I lurrveee the place- just right for soul searching but I am not gonna do any soul searching just MEN searching...wakakakakakakakak....not kecoh like Kuta and not too laidback and sepi like Ubud. Just in-between. Will go back and eat the glorious bakso sapi at Pasar Malam Sinddhu (lu orang tak akan percaya lah yang gue can sit and eat there :) and drink teh Sorso while munching fried banana with ice cream yang maha awesome by the beach with angin laut sepoi-sepoi bahasa melayangkan pareo ku....ohhhhhhhhhhh...and I get to meet up with Pushpa again - the 15years old waitress at Sanur Beach Restaurant........

After Sanur, will go back to Kuta and hopefully get to stay at my favourite Melasti Bungalow. Not a grand hotel but good enough for pensyarah yang gaji kecil seperti ku.....Yang penting, I feel safe there and it is right smack downtown Kuta wherby if I turn left, it will lead me to the beach and other shopping malls and awesome restaurants and if I turn right, it will bring me to my favourite Discovery Mall where I have my favourite shoes store, departmental store, book store, A & W, music store and the awesome ice coffee at Black Canyon, not to forget lepak-tion session golek2 at Celcius Cafe yang duduk atas ala2 katil, sipping hot Serai Wangi tea while looking at the blue, blue sea and but of coz thinking how nice it is if all my Badaks frengs can also enjoy the moments....Insyallah, soon to come....at least Badak4 is already seriously thinking about it sambil mengira ongkosnya buk....:)

What do I really want to do after cracking my pretty brain at the Feminism conference? I just want to lepak, lepak, lepak and more lepak. I don't even want to think. I don't even want to use my brain for anything except to figure out what to eat next. I want to just do that.

I also want to write my will there......the right place to write my will as I will not be influenced by anything or the environment.....Of coz some of my good frengs already know the content of my will (yang ada my house keys dah excited tak cukup tanah :) but I need to document it and legalize it if God send me back to Malaysia.......of course I am not planning to die in Bali but it would be nice if that happens as my tombstone will say something like this "She left the world where her heart resides - Bali". BTW, contrary to popular belief (like "dia mesti tidoq atas duit kan", "pitih dia mesti berlanar", "apa lah dia buat dengan duit yang banyak tu") - semua itu adalah persepsi yang sangat pelsu seperti senyumang ku yang sentiasa pelsu :) - my will will just be stuff that I adore and lurrveee - which does not include geran tanah, geran rumah, duit berkepok di bank or emas berkepok bawah tilam (itu will Kak Eshah :) Ohhhh...geran kereta buruk ada......:) Important to me, nevertheless........Like I said to Badak4 today "I think am gonna die soon so I will do anything that you guys want me to do or help with". Badak4 sudah excited sebab dia akan ada khadam percuma and never in her mind that "this" auspicious day will come whereby Badak Self-Centered mahu buat kerja untuk orang lain...ha ha ha.....

Why am I talking about death? Because Badak4 just told me that her brother mentioned to her that "semakin ramai orang mati sekarang" and I told her "dulu pun ramai orang mati tapi kita tak kenai and bukan contemp kita..." ha ha ha......

Well - it is good to remind myself about death so that it will remind me to appreciate life and its works.....Therefore, am gonna have a blast in Bali - regardless.......am gonna savour the moments for I might not be given the opportunity again.....am gonna be thankful for everything that take place for I might not be able to turn back with smile again......am gonna just enjoy Bali..........God Willing.......

BADAK's openg house....

It was a very enjoyable and berjaya day because we got to eat glorious food yang dimasak dengan penuh kasih sayang by all badaks. Too bad - Badak President missed the day and too bad she missed Abang Hammm who finally came :) And too bad - Abang Hensem yang pulun goreng mee dengan penuh kasih sayang tidak dapat menghadirikan diri kerana penat goreng mee...:)

All expected tetamu came except for Marina and VC and Dekans. Marina was away in Shah Alam. VC and Dekans - we intentionally did not invite...wakakakakakakakakkak :)

Me want to upload the pixs but the systems so lombab so Badak4 said tunggu system stabilize so that tak hangat hati trying to upload.

Ohhhh...we ended the day or rather the night to be exact, the morning (as we went home at 3am...he he he) with a blast and terbuktilah ramai yang "gila kosa" tahap dewata...HA HA HA.....

Errrr...siapa kawan kita?

A conversation took place between two badaks in preparation to our Badaks Raya Openg House.

Badak 1 : Siapa lagi kita nak ajak?

Badak 2 : Entah lah, gue hanya ada 4 sahaja kawan di opis dan itu semua telah diajak

Badak 1 : Gue ramai kawang tapi gue tak mau lah orang yang bukang close frengs and considered family members datang rumah gue.

Badak 2 : Sebenarnya kawan kita banyak ni saja kat Penang ni. Kawang lu kat KL ramai ke?

Badak 1 : Kawang gue kat KL pung 5 orang je (both of us counted the names :) Gue ramai kekawang lain tapi gue dah tak consider them as my close frengs so gue tak nak socialize dengan mereka. Malas dah. Sakit otak je.

Badak 2 : So memang sengaja lah lu tak mau ramai frengs?

Badak 1 : Oh yess....reramai pung kasi gue pening sahaja. I would rather have this little group of frengs but very meaningful to me - no reservations, no hangups, no nothing. I am very comfy with them and I can talk and do anything with them. They make me feel good but I donno la whether I make them feel good but I hope I do.

Badak 2 : So it is not about quantity but quality, right?
Badak 1 : Oh yes.....baik lah ada sedikit kawan yang bermakna dari ramai kawang yang menyesakkan hati dan fikirang.........

Badak 2 : Hmmph...so kita tak yah lah cari kawang baru?

Badak 1 ; Not for me. I rather have the existing ones and perfectly happy with them and all of you.

Badak 2 : Ok.

Badak 1 : Mungkin gue akan cari suami je sebab gue perlukan dreba...wakakakakkak...(yang ni tak sempat cakap kat Badak 2 tapi dia dah tahu lama dah....)

SUNYI & SEPI.....

Blog ini amat lah sunyi sepi berikutan situasi badaks seperti berikut:

i. The rajinest badak mempunyai blog sendiri. Maka daya usaha dan penat lelah menulis dicurahkan ke blognya yang kami semua enjoy membaca.

ii. Badak ke 2 rajinest sedang sibuk menulis paper untuk ke Bali Conference dan sebelum itu sibuk demam, batuk dan flu dan sebelum itu sibuk di Bali.

iii. Badak ke 3 rajinest sedang sibuk menyiapsediakan diri untuk ke Phuket atas urusan kerajaan, katanya.

iv. Badak ke 4 rajinest sedang sibuk menghadiri mesyuarat di sana sini bagi menggantikan boss nya yang jua sibuk ke sana sini di samping sibuk bergaduh dengan Ah Seng & Abg Sahak yang belum siap2 lagi menyiapkan istananya.

v. Badak ke 5 rajinest aka paling tiada masa menulis sedang sibuk mengikut ke mana sahaja DSJ pergi bagi memastikan suaminya (suami DSJ dan bukan Badak) masih kekal berkuasa di negara ini bagi tempoh terdekat ini. Di samping itu, badak ini juga sibuk membela anak di samping perut dan kecantikan.

Hatta, sunyi sepi lah blog ini buat beberapa purnama. Errrr.....speaking of purnama, kome2 tahu tak lagu Purnama Merindu by Siti Nurhaliza. Walaupung wa tatau menyanyi apatah lagi lyrics, tapi wa ingat part ini :
"siapa tahu rindu di hati ku...aku meminta pada yang ada...aku merindu pada yang sudi......." Lagu ini ditujukan pada diriku sendiri. Sekiang.

Selamat Hari Raya..............

If I were to live my life again.......Part 1

• Ta Ra.......If I were to live my life again, would I have it differently and what changes would I make???? Entry ini hanya untuk tujuan berangan and suka2 and tiada kaitan dengan manusia yang masih hidup atau masih mati.........also bertujuan untuk cheap thrill as we all do know that we lurrrveee our happening lives........So hit it on frengs.......

• Me....the self-centered Badak VP....
  
• I lurrrvvve my life to death - meaning I would like to die with my current life in tow but if I were given the chance, these are the stuff that I would like to add on or to make changes or to have or to make it happeng...........

• 1. I would like to be married off to my Boston's boypreng - he is the only "real guy" that I can get connected to and take me the way I am - no reservations, no demand, no expectations, no problemo. "I am happy to be with you as you make my life complete. We shall travel everywhere together and see the world and grow old together"........ohhhh...so he said.....how could you ever forget a person who put a smile on your face every minute of your life and knows how to treat you well - despite your weaknesses and "kerapah-tion".........If ever I have a regret, that is one - to let him go for stupid reason.......stupid....stupid....stupid.......neber mind..had it meant to be, it would had and God knows best........

• 2. I would like NOT to know my ex-tunang yang telah berjaya memasukkan banyak unsur negatives dalam jiwa ku sehingga ke hari ini.......................

• 3. I would like to do a PhD in Psychology....surprise! surprise! surprise!...Yes- I would like to learn a lot deal about humans behaviours...............(don't even wonder, don't even think and don't even say anything Tang!!!!....:)

• 4. I would like to save more (should have listen to Kak Eshah from day one) so that I can go travelling to all parts of the world every year.......

• 5. I would like to be able to cook and bake well like Kak Eshah and Kak Long.....then tak perlu lah hari2 makan ayam/ikang goreng, kicap and spinach......uwarghhhhhhh

• 6. I would like to own a little cottage surrounded by olive trees and sunflowers fields and little stream in Tuscany.......

• 7. I would like to own a bookstore........

• 8. I would like to have a loyal driver and a loyal maid who wash their hands everytime they touch my stuff.......

• 9. I would like to dance well.......

• 10. I would like to be more intelligent and wordy so that I can contribute more to the society.....

• 11. I would like to be less self-centered, to emphatize more and to understand better......

• 12. I would like to be more sabaq, sabaq, sabaq and sabaq...........

• 13. I would like to be cool, calm and collected.......

• 14. I would like to be wiser and make better decisions about many things.......

• 15. Finally, I would like to be reincarnated as a pub singer....and my first song would be......SWAY.........wakakakakakakakakkak!!!!

• And you????

The Amazing Race(r).....................

• Hmmmphhhhh...where did that come from? Badak5=The Amazing Race(r)??? Ontah la labu...but Badak5 fits into my profile of that category as she is one brilliant racer......in many positive ways - not that the rest of the badaks are not.................

• I first met Badak5 at Badak3's place when both of them were residing at the grand Rumah Transit Desa Aman (did we all not.....) She came out from her apartment when she heard my LOUD voice talking to Badak3. She immediately came to me and said "I know you. I have been to your house at East Ham. The minute I heard your voice, I knew that was you - from the East Ham years...."Hmmphhhhhh....she is not the first and will not be the last to notice the voice before the person......

• Anyway, I was impressed that she could recognized me while I cracked my pretty brain to locate her....."You sure tak ingat sebab masa tu you kalut keluar masuk dengan your NST friends," so she emphasized, probably to make me feel better (Badak5 kan very diplomatic and tactful - al-maklum la lawyer....:)

• And after that, we kept on talking about people that we knew and the East Ham communities and the cute brainy real guys around East Ham - JOKE!!! mana ada daaa species itu.....We got some connection allright.........

• After which, we started to become friends and Badak5 was introduced to Badak Prest and was included in the circle - partee, sopping, parteee, sopping, partee, sopping, more partees and more soppings and in between, but of course - stuffing our faces sessions...........

• I still remember her first car - Daihatsu Charade and her driving...ha ha ha...never mind the car, mind the driving...:) Badak3 will always offer to drive whenever we go out - for her life's sake...:) Me? I donch care as long as I don't have to drive. I am perfectly happy as a passenger - and fully equipped with all sorts of doas before I put my life into Badak5's hand......ha ha ha.....

• Badak5 lurrrrrrvvveee to jahit menjahit and I am the lucky one to always be given awesome shorts, amongst other stuff. And she also enjoyed cooking and baking and she "used" to cook us really good food and ever willing to do so - until she got herself hitched to DG - hmmmmppphhhhhhhhhhh!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!! And now, not only that I don't get checked or floral shorts no more, I also seldom get to taste her yummy cooking.....hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmph!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!! (shift of priorities in life....:) Neber mind - her being happy is more important than any shorts or chocolate cake or pasta or ikan goreng bodo or soup ayam bodo or chocolate cake (diulangi!!) or ayam goreng bodo - of the world.........................
  
  To me, Badak5 is one "sabaq" and "calm"person that I have ever met in my life......I am always amazed at how sabaq she is with everything - almost everything. She could absorbed stuff just like that and always try to be positive about it. I am sure that most of the time I managed to annoy or irritate her but she being her natural calm person, just smiled away..........But again,come to think of it - all Badaks with the exception of me, are very "sabaq" and "calm" people......hmmmppphhhh.....where did I go wrong?????? :) oh yeah......I am the self-centered one.......:)
  
  And jodoh pertemuan di tangan Tuhan. God make me introduced DG to Badak5. Am glad that they got hooked and realized that they belong together and God Willing, forever. Well, Badak Prest introduced Badak4 to her husband so who gonna introduce me to my Mr.Monk?????? And who gonna introduce Badak3 to the Pak Haji Kecut?? oopppssss...sowi....Pak Haji Kecut pung dah diambil orang....ha ha ha.....:) And who gonnna introduce Badak Prest to her Mr.58???No need.....already found.....:)

• In the final analyses, am glad that all us Badaks got to know each other as each one of us contributes to the richness of each other's lives........We all do have our own "peculiarities" - some more than others - (no need to guesss......) and "specialities" - however we manage to put aside the differences and stay good together. We may not be in touch everyday (with the exception of us on this little island as we got no other frengs...by default la...ha ha ha) but everytime we are in touch, we can take off from where we last met/spoke........That's how special our "bondings" are..........We may not share every single details about our lives but we do know that whenever we need to speak up or to cry our hearts out - there will always be a badak or badaks to lend her ear, eye and heart............In that, we know who we are in each other's lives.........We are there for each other - in good, sad, trial, challenging, joyful, heartbreak, heartburn, heartache and all sort of moments........We may not be materially rich (at least not me!!!) but we are spiritually and soully (ada ke word ni???) because we have each other.......

• In the end, thats all that matters......

• And where did the name "badak" emerged from? One fine day, my brother said this to me "Apa khabaq kawan2 you Ngah?" "Kawan mana?" "Kawan Persatuan Badak Sekawan......." :) Nice? I thought so......